The Nightwish Fandom.

You  know, guys.. This is going to be pretty truthful blog, so if you can't handle it don't read it.

I love Nightwish. I really do, I eat, sleep and breath their music. (I guess that's what happens when you listen to them compulsively for ten years..) They also happen to be really awesome people and I couldn't be blessed more than to have met them, not once, not twice but three times, and to hang out backstage and watch observantly, the shenanigans that go down.

Now, onto the Nightwish Fandoms.  Every social networking site has them. I'm going to talk about two in particular. Facebook and Tumblr. Alright, now the good sides of these fandoms is you are never far from like-minded people who just seem to share in genuine awesomeness. I have met so many of my friends through Nightwish, and am connected to said friends in one hundred million ways. We can talk about the concerts, posts pictures, have a laugh and share in one oogey, gooey Nightwish moment. That's the cool side of fandoms, and I enjoy that.

But there's ALWAYS a downside isn't there.  Let me post some of the things I've seen on the tumblr Nightwish tag within the last month:

Nightwish is selling wine now? WTF. Sell outs! (First of all, go home, you're drunk. Maestro loves his wine, it's featured in how many Nightwish songs?)

It's all Tuomas's fault for Anette and Tarja! He goes through women like I go through underwear! (Every five years? Uh, that's pretty gross..)

Floor Jansen is a man and she sucks. (WHAT?! This doesn't even make sense..)

Tuomas is a diva and he's ruining the lives of the other band members. (Hm.. I didn't see any shackles backstage in Montreal or Toronto. Perhaps they are invisible shackles..? That's the only explanation for why they stay right? He's making them!)

Troy's an asshole and should have never posted that thing on Facebook! (Troy has a typical British sense of humour! It's how he is.  I didn't find it particularly offensive, it was meant to be taken with a dose of laugh or shut the fuck up, too bad you guys missed the memo)

I think that's all I've seen on Tumblr, but now let's move onto Facebook.

Facebook is less annoying, because if people post assholeish comments, they don't pop up on your feed (unless you liked that group) like they do on Tumblr.

ON THE BANDS FACEBOOK STATUSES! People asking them to come their on their current tour! You know they already have a schedule right and flights booked back and things like that.

People commenting that Tarja is the best and Anette or Floor can't compare. (I guess that's true, because they weren't hiring similar voices,  and Anette and Floor have different voices all together. If Tarja was the best for you and you will NOT listen to anyone else with Nightwish, go buy Century Child and before, and shut up!)

How expensive concert tickets are. Yes, they run a lot of money, indeed. But do you want to see this band?! Are you okay with missing Nightwish for another three years or so. (*sadface* no.. and I went to both the concerts in Canada!) Then STAHP and pay for it!

You people make me crazy and really, I'm making it out to be a bit more of a big deal than it is, because in reality this is probably about half of the Nightwish fandom and the other half is awesome, still...

STOP IT AND BE A FAN OF NIGHTWISH. But at the same time, if you want like Anette Olzon, and Tarja Turunen. Hey, let's throw some ReVamp in there too.  It isn't a competition and it's not a one up challenge. And in the mean-time, stop posting nasty, negative comments in the wonderful, supportive Nightwish fandoms.

Dedicated to all my Nightwish friends.. There are a lot of you guys.. Probably about fifty, if not more. <3

I'm going to go listen  to Slaying The Dreamer now and have a nice hot shower.

Bailey Dawn

Can I just say how awesome....

Disney and Pixars "Brave" is?! Normally I don't usually like pixar ovies except for Toy Story, but this is AMAZING and so very celtic it makes me turn into goo at every turn! Bah! I love love love it! I'm going to try recording a cover of one of the songs for you guys tomorrow and hopefully posting it if my snowball will ever work! Until then, I leave you with a song from it! It's genius and makes you feel so uplifted and warm and fuzzily! It makes me imagine doing things independently like hiking, riding a horse or even just sitting in the sun light and enjoying the cool winds. Too bad it'll be about 6 months before I can do that again. Oh why did I wish this summer away?! Oh right.. because I was seeing Nightwish twice in the fall. Upon further reflection, no regrets at all. :)


Enjoy the rest of your week, I'll be secretly fantasizing about being in the forest in Scotland..  I really need to just buckle down and go to Inverness... My grandmother would definitely want me to and Troy Donockley said it was beautiful.

Bailey Dawn

One more month..

One more month and I'm free to read, sleep, watch movies and listen to music whenever I want! It's unfortunate that I'm stuck in the house from December to April (to keep myself from getting stuck in a snow drift somewhere) but I'm really excited. Perhaps my other, more artistic ventures will start to pick up again.

I love being at school and  having fun with my friends don't get me wrong, but it'll be nice to have some me time. It seems like I'm always surrounded by people and now it's time to just unwind, before starting school in the summer... I've changed my mind so many times about what I want to do now that I'm just at a loss. I wanted to work in event planning, specifically for concerts, then I wanted to be a radio broadcaster, then perhaps in tourism helping people in wheelchairs..

I know what my heart wants to do though, but I don't really think it would be practical to take musical theater. Why, why, why? I'll never get any roles, and when I do I'll be typecast to all shit. Still, I'm yearning for the human experience of it all and I haven't been in a musical since high school and I miss it.

The Phantom of The Opera is there, inside my mind...

Bailey Dawn <3

Tick tock... Happy Birthday to me. Tick Tock..

Well, I'm 23 in just a few short minutes and as I sit and reflect back on my twenty three years of life, I remember the good, as well as the bad. I've been through my fair share of things in my life, but here's what I'll say.

I am eternally grateful for everything I have, and what I have to look forward to walking with for the rest of my life. It has been a mess of opportunities, challenges and most of all, love.

I would never change my experiences, because they have shaped me into who I am today. This quirky, little firecracker who wears her heart on her sleeve and cries at the drop of a hat. The young lady that, above all, has so much passion that it hurts sometimes. We all have to hurt, don't we? We ride the roller coaster of life and have to enjoy it's ups and downs. (I prefer the Ferris wheel, but then you probably wouldn't have the adrenaline running through you that you do in any given situation)

I am made up of a dark side, stitched together so lovingly that it scarcely matters because I have good intentions. I love my life and I love the emotions I need to go through and the lessons I need to learn to accomplish what I need to do. 

The physical disability, the body that I'm in, the awkward freckles, the copper coloured hair and the deep dark brown eyes. None of that's important, because it's what's on the inside that counts. The soul, the aura and the mind. The perfect balance between the two that I'll never achieve doesn't hold me back from dreaming, it just makes them so much more vast.

I regret a great many things in my life, but I have to deal with what's here and now, not there and went.

Thanks for being there guys, and reading the blog. I love that you're all there every step of the way. Tears are pouring down my face at the moment and I'm beginning to realise just how much support I really have. <3 You've meant the world to me since that crazy girl in the wheelchair decided to start this blog and realised that there were people such akin to me.


And I leave you with this... This beautiful piece of music that seems to soothe my soul. <3

Lindsey Sterling's "Lord of The Rings Medley"

Bailey Dawn <3

I'm posting one of my many stories. It's.. boring, but I feel like it, so read if you want. :P

The scuzzy hotel room was dimly lit by the cherry on Baine’s cigarette as he eyed his newest prize. She was absolutely beautiful, a red head with hazel eyes that relinquished in fear every time he moved. Ah, she would do. Her father was some business executive, who made millions of dollars every year from plugging pharmaceutical companies, but also ran a drug ring which he also profited from immensely. She kneeled there on the bed, hands tied behind her back and wearing nothing but a soft white chemise that left barely anything to the imagination. Baine could see her chest heave as she took a breath with a cloth tied into her mouth. She stared up at him like a little lost doll and he felt sorry for her, “You poor thing.. You look absolutely terrified, but I’m not going to hurt you.. Not at all, in fact once your daddy hands over the money and drugs, I’ll let you go and you’ll be right as rain…” He exclaimed, standing up from the cherry oak chair which grated against the worn hard wood floor and slid along the wall which caused a crunching noise as it chipped the dim green paint from wall. Baine lowered himself on the bed behind her and reached around towards her mouth with well-worked, calloused fingers to untie the cloth from around her mouth, letting it fall onto the dirty and worn burgundy sheets. He touched her neck with his fingertip and traced downwards where the tattoo of an orca was placed in the middle of her upper back, inhaling the smoke from his cigarette as he did so, letting it hang from his lips as he spoke, “A killer whale, huh?” He said softly as he let his hands trail down to her hands, tied behind her back and undid those binds as well, “I’ll bet there’s a story behind that..” He murmured against her ear.

Bailey shivered, “Just that I want to be free… I want to be free from the chains that bind me..” She remarked, her voice hoarse. She soon realized that his hands were not malicious, but rather kind and gentle. Baine took a deep breath and picked her up gently, placing her under the worn duvet before leaning back on his knees, “That’s philosophical... At least it isn’t a butterfly like every other tramp out there...” He chuckled, his thick Irish accent coming to full brim as he spoke. He stood up and tossed her a water bottle from the mini fridge before drinking the last gulp from a bottle of beer. He looked at her oddly, “What’s your name, luv?” He said with the most charming smile she had ever seen. Despite the fact that he was covered in tattoos and scars, he was still beautiful. His soul showed that. She started to feel more comfortable around him, her body ached and she looked at him, “Bailey… I’m Bailey..” She whispered softly.

Baine didn’t know what had come over him… He wasn’t above showing kindness, but he felt so a kin to this young woman that he could barely contain himself. He couldn’t help but ask a million and one questions and she had an answer for every single one. As the night wore on they sat on the bed, facing each other and talking about the world, life, inspiration and a deep understanding of humanity.

Baine looked at her as the sun came up and glistened over her face, lighting up her features and casting a shadow on the back wall, “So what are your dreams then..? What do you want to be..?” She smiled softly, reaching for the sheets and bunching them between her fingertips, her eyes lighting with a soft glow as she stared up at him, “Free…” She muttered. She glanced out the window as dawn had come, her eyes dancing over every single flower and blade of grass. “You’re nothing if not free, free to fly into the morning light, like a dove that breaks from it's cage…” She stated in a hushed tone, turning to look at him.

My god, yesterday was trying...

Today is starting out the same way as yesterday and if so, I think I'm just going to go cry in a corner...

Yesterday I was heading to Calgary to see Dan's family and have my birthday celebration with them. My friend John was driving and Dan was in the car too. We get to Red Deer (about an hour and a half drive and the halfway point) and pull in to get some gas at 2 PM. Well John's tire went flat right then.. There was NO ONE on earth who would fix it (apply a patch and some air) and we went to 10 different tire shops, most of them closed. At this point, I have about 20 people going to a local pub in Calgary to celebrate my birthday so I'm trying to let them know that we might or might not make it.  No one can help with the tire until Tuesday, that's right.. TUESDAY.

We're stranded in a small town, with no one we know near by and darkness upon us... What do we do? Why, have coffee at Starbucks, of course! We did this to warm up (it was -20 there) and to regroup. We went through lots of options, like... Dan's father coming to get us, Dan's brother.. But ultimately three hours passed and we couldn't just ask them to come out, especially since it was now starting to storm in Calgary. John re-subscribes to Onstar as a last ditch attempt for help at 7 PM, and at 7:20 they were there putting the donut tire on the car.. We had to drive back to Edmonton and it took us three hours in relatively good conditions to get back.

I still feel guilty about letting Dan's family and my multiple friends down, and I feel disappointed that I didn't get to go have fun with the friends I'm NOT going to see next weekend, not to mention seeing Dan's family whom I love to pieces.. It fell through and apparently Mother Gaia was trying to teach me something about trusting my instincts, because on Thursday, I was thinking we should NOT go.

Back in Edmonton now, we are all starving and it's justified since the last time we ate was 11 AM. We were going to go to The Keg Steakhouse because OnStar was quoting 90 minutes, but they came so quickly that we had no time. So back in Edmonton we decide to go to our favourite pub, Runway 29. Everyone orders they're favourites, and I do too.  Everyones food comes out and it turns out that not one of my orders came in right. I eat my food, much later than everything else's (since they had to correct it) and we go home. I lie down while eating Lindor's milk chocolates and just cry.  Can anything else go wrong?

and now it's the next day.. I'm awake. What mysterious bad things are going to follow me today I wonder? I'm intent on working on my reading, writing my story and staying away from any ladders... And the whole time we were joking about how I should have been in Finland at the "Imaginaerum" premiere and then none of this would have happened. I wish. I'm sorry to those of you who braved the weather in Calgary and came to wish me well only to find me not there. <3 Love you guys. I have the best friends ever!


Bailey Dawn <3

and we've entered the...

part of winter where I need to seclude myself for my own safety. Hey 3 feet of snow, how are you? Don't get me wrong, I love the snow. In my estimation, I could probably lay in it for hours and make snow angels and have fun in it.. But my wheelchair hates it and I feel awful about missing school.. In the last two week, two days have been missed. bah, I'm not going to keep myself ahead  for very long if this keeps up. Plus, my battery in my wheelchair seems intent on committing suicide every 6 months, rendering me paying lots of money to have it replaced. YAY!...can we sense the sarcasm in my typing? I sure hope so..

People wonder why I'm secluded and weird. lol Maybe it's because I spend 8 months out of the year locked in my house, watching the snow fall and reading books..? It's heaven to me, but it does get lonely watching all my friends and family being able to come and go as they please and me just being.. stuck here. I guess such is life...? Hm, I wonder when they'll make a hover wheelchair?

By the way, I would like to post my social media again.. I know I have a lot more readers now.. (hey thanks Tumblr!) and I would just like to post my facebook and email if you guys want to chat at any time! I always enjoy new friends, especially over the internet kind where they can't see the dumb expressions on my face when I get a new email/Facebook notification, or how shy I am! Please do talk to me though, I do get terribly lonely at times.

missbaileydawn@gmail.com or https://www.facebook.com/missbaileydawn

Ironically, I'm not a miss anymore, but this email is old and I just haven't got around to changing it.

So what have we learnt today? I need a new chair, which will cost around 15,000 or so. Preferably a hover chair, but I don't think they make that yet.. :P I'm weird and a shy recluse who prefers the company of books to people. We already knew this. I hope I can get through until the15th of December, because that's when my class ends and I want my 87.5 average to STAY.

I'm also kind of excited about having something to do this upcoming semester.. I'll be trapped in my house, sure.. But I can pour all my energy into my poetry, but also the Nightwish Canadian fan club.. Which you should totally check out and join if you are Canadian. *cough sputter advertising* I can't wait to make it lift off of the ground and fly to highest arch in the tallest tree! It's going to be so awesome! LINK TIME! Aso, I hope you like the art.. I kind of shoved their hands a little bit into Orca's and my friend Joanne is amazing and did this for the club!

http://www.nightwishcan.com/

Also, can there be anyone more awesome than Plamen Dimov? I think he's an awesome guy and so very sweet. :) A big shout out to him who helped me by posting the link on his facebook wall. THANK YOU! :)

Also, a big thank you to Ioana, who also posted it everywhere she could! You are fantastic!

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By the way, I just rediscovered Nightwish's "The Siren", a song I use to listen to on a daily basis, for hours on end. It's fucking fantastic! Go listen!

Bailey Dawn

This weekend is going to be awesome...

I'm going to Calgary to celebrate my birthday with Dan's family. Then I'm going to the pub, "The Regal Beagle" to sing karaoke or do name that tune and hang out with all those friends from Calgary I tend to neglect, sorry guys! I'm then going to be coming to school for the week, doing a final in class on my actual birthday and then the next weekend I'll be having my party in Edmonton. I've done roughly about 6 hours of homework in advance to have this luxury so.. yay!

People think it's weird that I never get presents for my Birthday/Christmas/Anniversaries.. I guess I'm just so use to it now though that it never occurs to me. But someone asked me what my ideal present would be at this moment and that's a REALLY hard question.

I guess it would be something somebody made with their hands, wrote or something that came from the heart.. I've never been too concerned with material gifts, but having a poem or a story, song or what have you, would be just as wonderful.. I could cherish it and put it in my scrapbook or frame it. I don't know, that would be probably what I would want. I give gifts freely, it delights me when I see someone smile, so that's really enough for me.

Maybe I should start a birthday card drive.. Thoughts, comments, questions? :3

Bailey Dawn Coty

Feeling..

Pretty damn good, I must say.. I am all caught up in school, I am looking to my future and probably the main reason I'm feeling better: Disney movies. God, I love Disney movies. I love everything about them. I just finished watching Hercules and now on to Alice In Wonderland. I have the flu, but this is like the best flu ever. Tea, books, Disney and vocal lessons. :)

I can't wait to watch Ducktales tomorrow. I <3 Scrooge McDuck. ^_^

Bailey Dawn