300 pounds of Metal!: March 2013

So I'm sick, it's 8 AM and I've been awake for hours, but can't sleep due to sickness, I figured I would post this.

1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up.
Kate Voegele- Only Fooling Myself. Nightwish- The Siren. Haggard- Eppur Si Muove. My Dying Bride- The Blood, The Wine, The Roses. Sonata Arctica- Paid In Full and HIM-Fortress of Tears.
2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
Tough one, but probably Tolkien, if he were alive, that is.
3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.
“Something awful?” asked Sniff, pulling his nightshirt tighter around himself.
4) What do you think about most?
Uhm, oddly enough I tend to day dream, mostly about swimming in the ocean and swimming with the orcas.
5) Ever had a poem or song written about you?
Yes, Dan wrote me one for my birthday, it was lovely and made me cry.
6) Do you have any strange phobias?
I don’t like screaming, yelling or people drinking around me unless they are happy drinkers. I completely clam up and get nervous. I guess that’s what you get when you’re raised by verbally abusive alcoholics though.
7) What’s your religion?
I’m.. a whole bunch of things. I believe in God, but I am also Pagan for a better word. I work with energy and magic.
8) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?
Staring up at the sky or smelling the breeze.
9) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?
Nightwish, most likely. Their music moves me to places I haven’t been before, but yet seem strangely familiar.
10) What was the last lie you told?
Hmm, that’s a tough one. Uhm.. I cheated at Life just a few hours ago. The actual board game, that is. I don’t make a habit of cheating, but I was so tired and just wanted the game over that I just subtracted money from my account and came down here.
11) Do you believe in karma?
Ish, yeah, I think I do. Do an action you get a bad reaction or a good reaction to said action.. I believe much more in the law of return though.
12) What does your URL mean?
My wheelchair weighs three hundred pounds.. 300 pounds of metal. haha, get it? Yeah.. I don’t know.
13) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?
My greatest weakness would have to be over-thinking things to the point that tend to get anxious.. My greatest strength is and will always be my compassion and strength, because I think those go hand in hand.
14) Who is your celebrity crush?
I don’t really have crushes.. I have fondnesses, I suppose you could say? Tuomas Holopainen is a handsome guy, and I’m pretty fond of him, though not in that way.. I don’t know! I’ve always thought that Katy Perry was kind of cute?
15) How do you vent your anger?
Turning red in the face, trying to articulate what I mean, then giving up and then going off to cry somewhere.
16) Do you have a collection of anything?
I collect masquerade masks, tarot cards and Nightmare before Christmas merchandise. I also have a fairly extensive Nightwish wall, so I suppose I collect that.
17) Are you happy with the person you’ve become?
I think so, I mean I’m not super successful, rich or have a great life but I do have true friends who love me, a husband who cares for me and despite all their shortcomings, a fiercely loyal family who would fight for me.. I love my life. Sometimes it sucks due to the wheelchair, but normally I’m a pretty happy person and despite all the trials I’ve been through in the past in regards to my brain tumor and death of family members, I think I came out the better person for it so I can’t even say I would take it back.
18) What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?
A sound I hate.. Silence. I always have to have white noise, even if it’s the wind or waves crashing at the lake, I need it. The sound I love most in the world would be violin music, though it’s bittersweet, I adore it.
19) What’s your biggest “what if”?
What if my mother had continued vocal/instrument lessons after I got my brain tumor and was paralyzed down my right side.. Could I sing maybe? Everyone tells me I sound lovely, but I can’t hear it.
20) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
I do believe in ghosts and aliens terrify me. Total irrational fear right here.
21) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.
With my right, my side table, with my left, the Nightwish wall.
22) Smell the air. What do you smell?
The smell of my cinnamon shampoo.
23) What’s the worst place you have ever been to?
Honestly, Toronto.. I hate Toronto! Wall to wall concrete, very little natural landscapes. Bugs the hell outta me.
24) Most attractive singer/s of your opposite gender?
Vile Valo.. Final answer.
25) To you, what is the meaning of life?
Life means to keep learning, to experience, feel, taste, touch and smell your way through it. Just when you think life is getting boring, there’s another obstacle in your way. Most people like to coast through life but I love to experience it. Even in the darkest of times, there’s always a silver lining. Also, if there’s anything my father’s untimely death taught me, it’s live life like it’s your last day every day, something not a lot of us do.
26) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?
I don’t drive, but I do drive a wheelchair? Once when my chair was brand new and I wasn't good at driving it yet, I crashed into a pole though. Never a serious crash! lol
27) What was the last movie you saw?
Sleeping Beauty
28) What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?
I haven’t had many.. I guess when my cast (from them trying to fix my leg after the paralyzation) sliced my leg open and I got blood poisoning. I was sick, laid up in a hospital bed for a week, on antibiotics every 4 hours.
29) Do you have any obsessions right now?
Mostly reading, writing and cooking, as per usual. Though, I am always obsessed with music and books too. Right now I'm re-reading The Hobbit for about the millionth time.
30) Ever had a rumor spread about you?
Have I ever. Somehow someone got it in their head in Junior high school that I was going to be in a Harry Potter movie, (??) and so everyone was walking up to me, asking me and even the teachers at my primary school knew. It was kind of crazy and weird.
31) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?
Surprisingly not, actually. I blow up at them and then leave it alone.
32) What is your astrological sign?
I am a Scorpio. We’re all shocked. Though to me, I don’t seem that mysterious, but people tell me I am.
33) What’s the last thing you purchased?
Coffee and tea today at Tim Hortons.
34) Love or lust?
Depends on my mood.
35) In a relationship?
A marriage even. How about that!
36) How many relationships have you had?
2.
37) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?
Nothing. If they don’t like me then that’s their loss. I’m not going to waste time crying about it. I’ll be over here with the people who like me enjoying my life.
38) Where is your best friend?
I have a lot of best friends, actually. All in different ways, but all of them are probably sleeping and\or just waking up seeing as it’s 8 AM here.
39) What were you doing last night at 12 AM?
I had just woken up from a nap since I wasn’t feeling well. Still feeling kinda bad but oh well.
40) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?
In all honesty, no. I mean, I’m great when I’m there and I think I’m a really good friend, but I go through these periods where I tend to shut everyone out (usually for a month or so at a time) and be alone and completely disregarded, and I like it that way. I think if I was my friend, I would get a little irritated.
41) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?
I would obviously save the puppy. Screw work.
42) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?
I would not be afraid, first of all. I was dying when I had my brain tumor.. and it was the most peaceful thing that I’ve ever had to go through. I would tell my closest friends, my family and my husband and I would spend the month doing all sorts of crazy things like traveling for concerts, and seeing Finland and going to Inverness to honor my grandmother.
43) What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?
I always tend to do a little dance of joy when I hear “Last Of The Wilds” by Nightwish.
44) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?
Trust and communication.
45) How can I win your heart?
Well, you can’t because it’s already been won but we’ll just say for sake of argument that it hasn’t. You wanna win my heart? Be creative and emotionally intelligent. That’ll win my heart. Smile brightly when you see something you like, have a warm light and curiosity in your eyes when you do your hobbies and treat me with respect. That’ll win my heart. Also, bonus if you like to read and we can sit across from each other in complete silence reading for hours.
46) Can insanity bring on more creativity?
It’s a very fine tightrope to walk, isn’t it? I think it can, yes.
47) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?
Marrying my husband because no one has ever treated me like he treats me and we share a love that is deep and unrefined.
48) What would you want to be written on your tombstone?
Ocean Soul.
49) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word “heart.”
Break.
50) Basic question; what’s your favorite color/colors?
Purple, blue and red.. in that order!
51) What is your current desktop picture?
An open book with an orca jumping out of one page and heading for another.
52) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?
Uh wow.. That’s kind of harsh. I wouldn’t do that to anyone. Instead, I’d probably focus on the negative energy exploding.
53) What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?
Wouldn’t you like to know.
54) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?
Being able to breathe underwater so that I could go and swim with the orcas, dolphins, sharks, seals, sea lions.. You get the picture.
55) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?
Hah, this is going to sound so cheesy, but I’d relive all of Montreal again. :P
56) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
Nothing, because if I erased, I wouldn’t have learned the lesson from it and I wouldn't be the person I am today.
57) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?
Nobody.. I don’t know. Sex is all fine and dandy but couldn’t I like take them in a room and talk fantasy novels or something? Could we do that instead?
58) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?
Finland, Tampere to be exact. I want to check out the University I’ll be attending there.
59) Ever been on a plane?
Unfortunately. They terrify the ever living fuck out of me. I hate them.
60) Give me your top 5 hottest celebrities.
This is so vapid but alright. Katy Perry, Ville Valo, Adele, Floor Jansen and Alexander Skarsgard.

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